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“im afraid this is all going to sound really stupid when i type it out. well im 19 but a couple years ago i was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety, i was on meds but didnt like them and they made me a zombie, so i stopped. well now its getting worse, my parents got divorced, which killed me. i don’t have access to my car anymore, and nowhere to really go anyway, so im just stuck inside alone all day and i really shouldnt be left with my thoughts. i know i need to go out and get a job and get back in school, because i feel as though im wasting my life. but i have no motivation to do any of this. i’m in the biggest slump ive ever been in. my life has changed so much for the worst these past two years, and i just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. sometimes i feel like id be better off gone, and i know id be missed but sometimes i convince myself i wouldn’t be at all. i want to be the girl i used to be, outgoing, and fun. and now i can barely go into a store without feeling soo self conscious almost to the point that i hate even leaving my house, but then i also have this fear that if i don’t meet some new people i’ll be alone forever, and ive already had a boy, and a girl break my heart last year. sorry that was so long. but yeah…oh and i love the idea of Coexistere, you guys are doing a great thing. <3”
